I woke up this morning around 3AM and couldn’t go back to sleep. St Mark’s – the cathedral I attend – is offering Communion every day at 7AM during Lent. I decided to go. I went a few times during the daily offerings during Advent. It’s in the chapel and therefore there’s a cozier atmosphere to Communion. Also, it’s 7AM and not a Sunday. This all makes it slightly different from a typical Sunday morning Communion. Since starting to attend liturgical churches almost four years ago, I have received Communion every Sunday morning. It’s an odd feeling receiving it during the week, but also very refreshing, especially when you feel like it's needed.

When Canon White broke the bread this morning it was a loud crack because of the chapel setting. You’re kneeling there and in a responsive and reflective mood and can’t help but think of Christ’s suffering on the cross when you hear that crack. I think of that every time I receive Communion, or at least attempt to. It was different this morning. It hit home – hard. I’ve been thinking a lot about Christ’s suffering lately and I guess that’s just what you’re supposed to be doing during Lent. It’s really unfathomable that He hung on that cross for you and for me. I’m not worthy of such – at all. And it’s not something I try to make sense of because my finite, human mind can’t make sense of it. God’s bigger than us. He knew what He was doing. We know what He’s done, so now we just have to accept it by faith and through His grace.

Lastly, I've been thinking about Passion a lot lately. I want one again, like right now! Haha. I've been thinking about Chicago and what God has planned for me there. Somehow I'll get there. He has a plan and it's for me to be there. That was completely reinforced at Passion. Anyway, this video is from Passion. Being a part of this and seeing it in person is something I'll never forget. It was one of the most incredible experiences of my life. We sometimes forget that God doesn't just speak English. He is a God for all, of all. The world is huge, but our God is bigger.