Just ask.

Realizing key concepts in life’s relationships is always a lot of fun. I did some of that this week. This week has probably been the most self-revealing week since the last week of December. It’s ok, but it’s not. Lent started this week. And with Lent, an earnest call upon God began. I’ve seen Him work in two key ways in my life. There’s the “shock and awe” method where He just completely hits you upside the head, seemingly destroys your life and you have no choice but to listen. Those are never fun experiences and can most often be avoided. There’s also the “just ask” method. God answers all prayer. He really does. It’s with a “yes” a “no” or a “wait and see.” I find that these two methods are the ways God gets my attention. Other than that, He kind of lets me do my own thing and that always ends disastrously. So this week was definitely a “just ask” week. I haven’t genuinely asked Him a lot of questions in the past seven months. It’s been mostly prayers of thanksgiving. Even when I didn’t get Chicago, I didn’t ask Him why, I was just thankful for the opportunities I was able to have in applying for that job and how happy I am now with or without Chicago for the time being. His plan is greater than mine and ours are not always the same plan. How scary that statement actually is if you sit down and think about what little control you have.

So with that attitude, I set out on the Lenten season. I’m asking God a lot of questions. I’ve been asking myself a ton of questions and other people a ton of question. Why not give them to God? Like I’ve stated in an earlier blog post, these answers aren’t needed right now so “wait and see”, while extremely frustrating, is an acceptable answer. However, I got a few small answers this week. That was completely unexpected, but always a welcomed surprise.